Whose Will?

On a fine Sunday afternoon
I threw a stone in to a lake

I started thinking why did I do

what I just did.

I did not decide to throw that stone

even when picking it up.

Who could have known I was going to throw

if even I did not seem to know?

Did my neural subsystem decide out of sheer

randomness to throw the stone? If so, whats my part?

Did God predetermine that I will throw the stone

long before I was born? If so, whats my part?

I can think of only one possible answer to this question.

Let me stop throwing stones into lakes. Even if I do,

let me stop pretending to know why I do.